Whirlwind spontaneous houseguests bringing in a breath of Vermont witchery, including a tiny gnome. It was great to see Selene and how Lucien has grown, strange to be around this tiny creature!! I need more babies in my life. So get to work, friends!!
Talking over a bottle of wine in a nest on the rug, hours spent in Sword & the Rose talking about transmutation, identity, and paths with Randy/David/the djinn who owns the shop, warm spiced wine & meza at Kan Zaman, new shoe shopping and strange peaceful shops. Cozy goodness that pulled me out of my sadsack feelings on Friday night.
I’ve been craving whiteness, this mythical idea of a magical spa that is the true sense of “nothingness” – sky high ceilings and long white linen curtains blowing in a low breeze. Awash with sunlight and nothing but soothing, crisp white sheets and hot rocks, a space that only serves the purpose of being soothing and nothingness. My heart aches just writing about such a place – could I find it? Would it fix me?
So this was my mindspace and I was a little anti-social this weekend (my apologies, Selene!) but it was a learning experience. What is this intense feeling for quiet and alone-ness? Also, needing control of all situations? Ay. I have this intense and profound feeling of wrong-pathness, but am without a guidebook!
Last night I dreamt of a new house, ceilings high with arched porticos, purple mottled walls and a labyrinth of spaces. The kitchen was made of stone, and we moved in only to find my things were being stolen.
Things and space – why do I collect, feel the need to collect? What are these objects I surround myself with, and why are they so important to me?
Mmm, so many questions put out into the ether. Here, have some beautiful songs for your troubles.
Everything Beyond These Walls Has Been Razed ~ Reigns
Lament ~ Balmorhea
Get Over – Keijo
Liturgie ~Emmanuelle Parrenin
tibor
11 months ago
maybe you are a sun/wheel/magician? my tarot teacher is and so am i. we tend to collect things and attach special meaning to them.
Tanya
11 months ago
eeeee!!! you met the lil gnome! envy!
verhext
11 months ago
I already met him, when he was 2 months old! He’s much more fun now
melissa
11 months ago
maybe your dream is telling you to let go of some of these things and focus more on your inner space? it may help you to find that “right path”… ever considered a meditative retreat? perhaps you could arrange something yourself… go out of town for the weekend; get away from people, places, things; write or dance or sing–whatever it takes to release any negative feelings and open up your senses to that little voice within?
i sound like such a hippie. oh well.
i guess i can just relate to the feeling of being on the wrong path..although now that i am about to graduate (in a month!), it’s becoming more of a question of what path. i spent four years in college and i still don’t know what i want to be when i grow up..only that it’s not what i paid thousands of dollars to study. oof.
talking to objective (non-judgmental!) parties helps, too.
<3
Andrea Ferrante
11 months ago
Thanks for your post Tam. I can also relate to not feeling on my “true path” right now. And am definitely feeling all the stress that comes with that. I have to say that your posts are so inspirational and remind me to pay attention to what nourishes me. So thanks for keeping up this blog and creating a magical space for us to retreat to when we need it!
Angeliska
11 months ago
That shop! Oh, next time we must go..
Wish I had been there for witchings with you + S. and the wee one.. Thank you for all those songs- they are saving my life. I feel like I’ve been in that stone labyrinth house in dreams too- I dream of finding the perfect magical house, or of going back to the old ghost houses to find everything covered in dust. Beloved things and the resonance they carry.. Dust and magic and memories.. xoxox
verhext
11 months ago
tibor: tell me more?
angel: the dream was so clear, is clear even now. i had another purple-wall dream recently, too. strange.
tibor
11 months ago
you can get your birth cards read… its kinda like a regular reading except you get two cards and they are defined by your birthday. most everyone gets two, but i got three, the sun/wheel/magician. this site has a thing where you can calculate yours: http://www.tarotschool.com/BirthCards.html
do it and tell me what you got!
verhext
11 months ago
tara: judgment and the high priestess.
Selene
11 months ago
Wish I had those photos from that day processed. I feel special being included here and had a wonderful time with you and Kevin. I felt like Sword and the Rose what exactly what we needed that day, it was as if David/Randy knew just what we had been talking about and he became the oracle for us—and the Middle Eastern food after wasn’t bad! Yum.
When I got home I looked at all my purchases and thought: I did not live within my means. So now that you have your book idea planted in my head, I think I will use it to help me get out of my habit of collecting needless/needful things. It’s so hard to be materialistic in this way—maybe you can use you cake diet skills to go on a shopping/collecting diet too. I lack discipline in all areas, so I don’t even have a muscle to develop in this regard. Must work on it.
I think you shed the cranky pants and put on the gracious hostess ones before I got there : ) Thanks for the lovely time/conversations/adventures/wine etc.
xo
Erin
10 months ago
Thanks for the nod! I’m a fan of your website- it’s fun to see you’re a fan of ours too!
-Erin,
cellist for Balmorhea
verhext
10 months ago
Erin: Yay, thanks! I love your music, I just discovered it recently!