It’s funny because we got our wedding photo DVD yesterday, so I want to actually post photos this weekend. Serendipity!
My parents had a small wedding – they’d been planning and felt completely overwhelmed by the expectations of the day, they didn’t have the money to throw the wedding their families wanted, so they told a handful of friends to show up at the church & they got married, going to my grandparents living room to drink champagne afterward. Their honeymoon was skiing in Vermont, and the rest is history!! They fell in love with Vermont & when it was time to start a family, moved there.
Possibly because of this, my parents were the most vocal about “just elope already” while we were planning the wedding. It’s no secret that I sometimes wish we did! Unfortunately, the internet is not the best medium to vent my frustrations, because I’ve hurt peoples feelings and confused others. I want to be super clear – when I say that, it’s ME feeling overwhelmed and worn out and broke and confused. It’s not that I didn’t love my wedding, I did, 100%. But I also bit off more than I could chew DIY wise, and as a result didn’t finish as much as I wanted to (oh you know, the dress, little details like that) & ended up spending the week exhausted, frustrated, and unable to see my favorite people in the entire world, who traveled to my woods for me! It was just not what I’d expected, and if I could do it over, I’d spend more time with those I love. The wedding was over in a few hours – it got too cold to hang out – and we had no ‘after’ plan. That’s my fault! So. I am not saying I hate my wedding, or that anyone involved in it was not 100% amazing. I love my wedding. I love my husband! I love my friends and family! But it’s going to take a bit to get out of the money hole it got us into, and it’ll take awhile for the good to outweigh the stress around money and time I’m still feeling, & the perfectionist in me who wishes I’d gotten the details just so. I hope you can understand and bear with me. And no more people telling me I’m terrible for saying that sometimes I wish I didn’t have a wedding, because it hurts my dang feelings. Ok?
I just wanted to put that out there before I give you the onslaught of wedding photos. They’re gorgeous, the day was gorgeous.