2 months to go!

August 13th, 2010

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moodboard8Polyvore wedding madness. This helps, really. My ideas have been so scattered! And yes, I know that you’re supposed to make pretty overlapping collage type things in Polyvore but I like it all spread out. I don’t know why.

What’s left? We ordered a suit on eBay, fingers crossed it fits. I need to start my dress, still. I’m having a hard time because I’d wanted to lose the weight I put on post surgery before I made my dress, and I can’t seem to. I know it’s terribly gauche to talk about weight, but damn. It IS hard to look at wedding blogs of skinny ladies and think about my meaty arms. Long sleeves for sure. I also totally regret all the tattoos I got 15 years ago, so I’m trying to cover them up. Yikes!

Browsing wedding blogs often gives me that happy nervous fluttery feeling, but then something else just sneaks in under your skin, that insecurity. You don’t even notice at first, then you start looking at your belly in the mirror and thinking about how you’ve been steadily gaining weight since your 20s and 10 pounds of that has been since surgery in December and you aren’t a young sassy fresh bride like those ladies in the photos. Hello, I’m an aging midget dumpling frizzhead, not a willowy golden thing.

Anyway. Enough of that nonsense. I will buy some silk, it will inspire me to start. Continue the yoga/climbing/biking I’ve been doing the last 2 weeks, which is making me ache but in a good way. Keep up with the no-sugar. Lessen the bread as much as possible.

Speaking of food and how frickin’ delicious it is, it’s time, I think, to put together a real wedding menu.

I searched for vintage picnic menus, but I don’t think I’ll find much help there! Things like: “A joint of cold roast beef, a joint of cold boiled beef, 2 ribs of lamb, 2 shoulders of lamb, 4 roast fowls, 2 roast ducks, 1 ham, 1 tongue, 2 veal and ham pies, 2 pigeon pies, 6 medium lobsters, 1 piece of collard calf’s head, 18 lettuces, 6 baskets of salad, and 6 cucumbers. Stewed fruit well sweetened, and put into glass bottles well corked, 3 or 4 dozen plain pastry biscuits to eat with the stewed fruit, 2 dozen fruit turnovers, 4 dozen cheesecakes, 2 cold cabinet puddings in moulds, 2 blancmanges in moulds, a few jam puffs, a tin of mixed biscuits and ½lb of tea.”

& that’s for a picnic of 40 people. Um, mmm? Anyway, finger food recipes welcome! I don’t want picnic-kers to have to scoop out potato salad on to plates. Think dainty! Light! Mid-day cocktail menu!

I’m still having no trouble at all fantasizing about that honeymoon. Ireland ahoy!

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Here’s a Polyvore set of extreme delusion. As heartbreaking as pretend shopping can be, the results are pleasing and a good “shopping list” for thrifts. I want to find a trench I can tailor, and am looking forward to finding tweedy classics. I really hope Ireland in October is foggy and misting!

Seriously. Grey rubber riding boots for mucking around Irish cliffs!! Sigh. I ordered black ones ages ago for $9 from eBay but the calves were toooo skinny for me.

What else do I need to be thinking about? I still have to figure out dresses for my ladies, and I went into a panic tonight because local hotels are COMPLETELY booked and everyone I know is SLOW with booking. Sigh. Angel will be here in September and we’ll figure out the ceremony and rings. I’m hoping the invite materials arrive tomorrow so we can finish them this weekend, but it doesn’t look promising. (Ooops, just checked, arriving Monday.) A million things to do once we get home to Vermont. The land & cabin is being worked on by my family but something really crap just happened today so that’s been halted. I have shoes. He has shoes. Cake flavors are picked out. We have plates. I don’t even know anymore. I’ll just get to Vermont and do it in 8 days, because I can’t even think.

58 days until I’m married. Holy cow.

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